I have been a slacker. In terms of blogging, not life.
Life is...Busy. Crazy. Upsetting. Overwhelming. Pain-Free. Funny. Good.
Busy. I have been to seven of nine weddings between April-November. I have been to nine bridal showers, two bachelorette parties (one in NASHVILLE!), to North Carolina, two rehearsal dinners, one baby shower, an engagement party, and as I said, seven weddings. Wedding number eight is in two weeks and I am a bridesmaid. This week I have a hair appointment, dress fitting, and need to fit in my nails at some point.
Crazy. I feel like busy and crazy go hand in hand. I am beginning to feel crazy busy. I started my new job. I like it, but as with anything new it is taking a lot of learning and patience to become accustomed to a new district, new curriculum, new co-workers, new principals, etc. I am loving the little ones and really that is what is most important! I am tutoring two days a week. I have so many new shows to watch as the networks have started their premieres. Penguins hockey started this past week, the Pirates are in the playoffs and as always football on Sundays. The fall is always crazy with all the festivals around our town. It is also my birthday month. I feel I am going crazy. But, as I am typing, I am realizing it is all good crazy.
Upsetting. The next word on my list. For as many great things that have happened in the last few months. there have been a couple things that have left me upset and disappointed. Like I said, my sister is back home. Things have been going well for the most part, however there have been a few instances when she has left me disappointed. I know I will never fully understand the disease of addiction, but I would never wish it upon anyone or anyone's family. Beyond my sister, I have just had a few let downs in the past few weeks and it has just left me a little more bummed out than I like to be. And, to top it off, the Phillies stunk this season, the Steelers are 0-4, and Hunter Pence is still in San Fran.
Overwhelming. If you have read my blog before, you know I get overwhelmed and unfortunately, overwhelmed easily. I think of myself as very laid back, however when I feel like there is too much out of my control, naturally I feel overwhelmed. As I said before, I started my new job. It is overwhelming starting fresh. The weddings have left me overwhelmed, feeling that I haven't had a single weekend to just hang around and really relax. My sister is home and has been for a few months. Although I love her being home, especially on her good days, it is overwhelming day to day. I turn twenty-six this month, and I am overwhelmed by the idea of where I am in my life. I am at a point, I feel ready to be settled. Now having the surgery past me, I feel that it is time to figure out what I want, where I want to be, and how to do it all. It's stressful, but I know it I am more physically and mentally ready to move forward than I have ever been before.
Pain-Free. Okay, on to more positive things. I am pain-free! I have had very few headaches. I have no tingling, no weakness, and I am falling a lot less! (still a little klumzy) It is funny, when I have headaches now I worry about saying it out loud. I feel bad complaining about an everyday stress headache. It is nothing like a Chiari headache, it is so minimal but it has been the only "pain" I have had recently. Any time I move my head, or sneeze, or jump, I still find myself panicking that I feel a "slight headache" coming on. I put "slight headache" in quotes because I feel like I say that a lot, even still. There are days I feel how I used to feel when a Chiari headache was coming on, and I used to phrase those days as "slight headache" days. But now, they don't become Chiari headaches. They simply go away as I continue with my daily routines. I truly, honestly, can not complain. The surgery was still the best decision I have made to date. I feel like this paragraph was one big rambling thought, but the point is that I feel great. I feel healthy, and I feel free. No more restrictions due to debilitating headaches and pain. It is nice to feel like a normal twenty-five year old. Hey Chiari, suck it!
Funny. Life is funny. I can't even begin to tell you how much I have laughed over the last few months. My family, make me laugh. My friends, make me laugh. My students, make me laugh. My co-workers, make me laugh. My TV shows, make me laugh. I really have found humor in so many things lately and I just can't thank those around me for continuing to make me one of the happiest people I know. Although I have had a rough day here and there, I continue to value the small things in life that create so many smiles. Through everything I have been through the past two years...my mom's cancer, my grandmother's passing, my sister's addictions, my career continuously being unknown, and of course, my surgery, I am proud to say I have kept my smile and laughter.
Life is good. I have wonderful parents, hysterical siblings, crazy cousins, silly aunts and uncles, and amazing friends. I have faith in God. I have a career I love and look forward to going to work each day. I live in a beautiful house filled with love, food and lots of TVs. I have a shore house to escape to when I want to. And as of this past week, I have a nice deck and I can sit on, sip my coffee, listen to music and blog...again, it is all about the little things in life.
Life gets a little busy, crazy, upsetting, and overwhelming, but that is life. Learning to accept those things and still find the funny and good in it all, that is what makes you live. :)
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