Ouch

I was going to try to be creative with my blog title tonight, but I honestly can't.

I didn't blog yesterday and almost didn't tonight due to extreme amounts of pain.  I HATE to complain, really I do.  BUT, I have the worst pain right above my incision.  It is sensitive to the touch.  When I say sensitive, I mean like jump a mile anytime something comes near it.  It burns and feels like small pinches.  I have been getting very frustrated with myself today trying to find the right words to describe the pain.  I find myself just saying, "I wish you could feel what it feels like, not because I want you to be in pain, but because then you would understand!"  I've called the doctor and his nurses assure me it is just my brain readjusting to all the room that I now have for it.  Great, but could it just adjust faster?  This is no fun.  At all. 

Tonight I attempted to shower again.  Many of you reading this don't know me well, but I HATE showering.  Gross, I know.  But honestly, I went days without showering in college.  In the winter, showering dries out my skin and once your out it is still cold.  And in the summer...that's what the ocean is for, right?  And now, after brain surgery, my mom has to be in there with me to wash my hair (yes, I love her and it doesn't really bother me, but how long until its not appropriate anymore?) I have to hold a side of the shower the entire time I am in it.  I can't have the water as hot as I would like because it makes me light headed.  And now, the water pressure even hurts my head.  Not in a headache type way, but in the same burning, pinching, type way above the incision.  Ouch. 

I have to send a shout out to my friend Jen who is in med school and is answering my constant "Should I be freaking out?!" texts.  Not only does she answer my texts in a calm and positive manner, but she reminds me that I just had brain surgery and it is perfectly normal to feel pain and feel anxious.  Thanks friend, you are really keeping me sane throughout the recovery thus far.  You, and my glorious iPad. 

Now that I can focus my eyes on technology (really still struggling to read books and magazines) I am loving Netflix on my iPad.  I have watched one too many chick flicks in the last few days.  I am hoping to start one of the TV series I've wanted to get into in the next few days.  Truly, I have been in so much pain that I've needed senseless entertainment to keep me distracted. 

Short, not so positive post tonight, but I can't wait to get an ice pack on top of my head and to focus my attention on (ugh reruns) of The Middle and Modern Family.  Hopefully tomorrow's post will be ... well, more like me.